i fall

read it its awsome clive barker

hello my friends of the underworld , how is the darkness, well i did it i jumped i gave wonderwall my number hopefully he recieverd it .will he call me bets are ----no ---- but atleast mike said in five years you can never say you did not , i never felt this way for a guy that it was a big deal to give my number or tell him the ball in his court im giving up the one thing i do like control of a situation aaaagha , of all the people of all the towns why did i have to work where he was , why did he have to hit me with his vibe why did i have to be inspire by him that he was so intresting that i could not help but write , seriously if he calls me i will be shocked or if he text me shocked , shocked , of everyone in my life just to have him as a friend would sufice but i am a casual hi in the midday someone who i guess in his eyes dose not stand out and he is welcome to correct me if he likes  i just want him to notice me when i am not around , but i can confess i can get him to smile which is an awsome smile it really is he always puts his head down which i find very cute see a crush is meant to slam you down leave you breathless and hopelessly wanted more and devastated    untill  wed  i will blog a poem  

later       cak