unfair brain activity

tattered    cak

i am trying to forget wonder wall , and get over this school girl crush like a normal women does which is fine and dandy , and i have been doing my flirting , the more i have no thoughts about him and i start to realize i am good . the dreams come back in full techno color , random dreams of him  why ?  i have convinced myself that he thought i was an ugly troll that lived under a bridge , he thought of me  never and if he did i made him sick to his stomach , i needed to think that , to get over the crush  but now in my dreams he comes through  -why ? it does not seem to be fair , and why him i have guys hit on me all the time , decent guys  , since he does not like me why get all messed up over him  , now yes he did inspire me in which the artist in me is very grateful but he is incapable of ever be attracted to me , i do not fit in his world , told to me by others 


underworld thank you for my venting it makes me feel better     until------   later  cak