AS I WONDER

I left the cold to find you

i left the place where they worship me

to be with you, to place my hands on your body, having you kiss my belly

have the rush of your soul

like the wind go through me

i need you to master my wild ways

to tame the storm in me

the others can never conjure silence from me

only you do this this to me. only you make me want something larger then the universe itself

you have a way about you

i walk through the city

i saw your trace, on the streets

then i went to the desert where the rocks are red

your place in the sun

red dust spun around me,leaving its presence

on myself red on the night

i touched where you have laid your head

knowing that you thought of me

you were no place to be found

i touched the rocks, hoping they would tell me where you are , they kept their secrets

i stood on the edge and declared myself queen of your land

the wind told me to tread lightly

i ignored its intuition

feeling your desire for me

how you long to kiss me

each time it seems the forces keep us apart

i so badly wanted you, i craved you in ways that surprised me

i long to wake up by your side

so the sun can know we shared the moon that night

alas you missed your chance of me coming to you , to lay down my defenses and declaring myself yours

now you have to seek me out

in my church where frozen statues of me stand and scrutinize the non believers

my lover of ancient, i climbed back to the night

i left my charm on your rock

find me in all the bitterness of the world

Carrie Ann kawa 8/31/2009