run cherry silver

RUN CHERRY SILVER


She walks down the street, like the world owes her something

Never content to just be

Turning the corner, she finds a problem in every sky

An emotional roller coaster ride is a tribute to the crisis she is in.

Snapping that gum, tight jeans with a wayward smile

Angry, chasing a taste of fire

Tattooed with doubts, and self loathing

Running away only to hit a brick wall

The demons of a childhood nightmare

Play upon her as if she was an instrument for their abusive song

Coffee and cigarettes’ are her motto- second nature as breathing

She will never know how special she is

She is the dog that gets kicked and goes back to lick your master

When will you stop running, face the demons and end the war

Worn out is how she feels

Beautiful and complicated

Angry and sad

Tortured by her own gift of sight

She feels like nothing and gives you back the same

Carrie Ann kawa 8 /2000

the blue angel

THE BLUE ANGEL


(Spoken by timothy)

She sang to me, sleeping in despair

Her stained glass silhouette on the lighted moon

My touch of sadness and her starlight light seemed to play those of a different color beat

Her soul wings caressed my bitterness

It renewed me

She took me to a church, old never new, it was in ruined

It was not a conventional religion that lived here, not man made fear of god, devil divine, soulless society pathway

This was different, a sad lullaby

Played the dogma with symbols of something that perplexes my mind

She undressed herself, stood naked there was no secret here, only truth

I fell to my knees, in complete awe of her, she went to me.

She stood back up, I was her equal to her she made me understand that

We kissed and there was nothing that existed but her

Time was an illusion, forever was a concept, now was real

We danced until the song was over and it never

Ended

Carrie Ann kawa 11/2002

who i am

WHO I AM


Cosmic flood, this who I am,

Thoughts start to form and I know who I am

My words go on different transformation of my thought patterns

You have to be the one that kisses the tears; you have to be the one that lets me be who I am really is

Storms gather in my eyes and the wind starts

You are my temptation,

You want to lose yourself in my kiss, I will let you, but you have to come back to me

I will sing my song only for you, only for you

I want you to know me; I will tear myself apart for you to see

And in the micro cosmoses of my mind, I will tear you apart and transform you into what you have always wanted, what you always need to be, but so scared to let it show

I will deliver wings onto you and make you fly

Taste my lips, sweet, only for you, only for you

The rhythm in your body, matching mine, but different in its own making

I am poison for other; they want to control and bring me to a level of common place

This is not who I am, I am forever, I am always

You come to me on bended knees

Carrie Ann kawa 11/16/2010

Inspired by what is between us

Royland

cherry silver confession

CHERRY SILVER CONFESSION


I do not know who I am

Journeys become quest

I sit here in the dark rock myself back to reality

I blame my heart for beating

The rhythm of the truth of my soul trying to come out

My dreams are of demons and cherry pits

Vision of others death and I find where buried

I do not know myself enough to understand

I am screaming for someone to tell me

I am real I am something

When I feel like nothing a speak of dust

That’s floats on the wind

When I am here I am not there and the other way works

The confession that my minds conjures up is devastating

I am not sure what is real and what is chasing me

I am afraid of the light to see me

The refection is disturbed and not quite right

I see what I want even when I don’t want too

Pray to the fates and welcome the evil on my knees confession to myself

Carrie Ann kawa 3/2007

Dark City Soundtrack 01 - Sway

storm

Storm


I have walked a thousand miles, too get here

I have walked a thousand years, too get here

You have waited for me, you have craved me

Worshipped me from the distant that you are

Time takes on strange illusions of not being real, almost tangible

You have looked inside my soul as I have done to yours

Tell me, what you found

I have opened myself up to you as you have done to me

Tracing my lips with your thumb , kissing me with a longing that you were unaware of , whispering to me we will build kingdoms’ in your honor

I will take you to the brink of existent and bring you back in.

I want you to walk with me, bring the storm; I want you to kiss me in forbidden places

And always be mine

Carrie Ann Kawa

11/07/2010

for ROYLAND   who has appreciated that he has become an inspiration , and knows that is a scared place to me .