kiss

not sure why i picked dare devil its eye chatching ?

i have slept a thousand years
my conscience in the flux of dreaming and the lull of humming of the world
in the darkness , i found you
your soul open,  i enter
there is nothing else
the world goes by and we  are locked together for eternity
i have nothing without you
in the same fashion you echo that back
all this pain goes away inside youe kiss
inside you mind
we are rock
we are water
we are wind
we are fire
cells alive
i lie on youe chest i hear your heart beating in the same rhythem of my own
you are to me as i am to you
something undenible
something unexplanable
something extraordinary
we fall deeply in the flux of dreaming
i dream you , you dream me
one and yet two fading into the white all in the blink   -----  of a kiss

carrie ann kawa   3/2006

i want some pie

hello  i am truly tired i have been on this computer for  4 hrs i had to write a summary of a brief and well i  got it done now i have to go to an award ceramony cheer lead { yeah right} and think when i go homei still have no pie in my fridge i have candy a lot of candy no pie


  so a little musing until i have to go
 when it rains in the city , ther is nothing like it , the storm is an opening to a forgotten art of enjoying the weather and nature in its true elememnts

time is a lost angel forever fallen into the depth of an abyss of endless

we walk around each other never touching passing only pleasentry of polite socity never wantting to leap the fall is so great and ever so damanging

theres  a line in creep by radio head " i want you to notice me when i am not around "  i want that i want to make sure when i am not around it makes a difference in some ones life

 the end until  tuesday        later  ww           carrie 

another day

i am weary of today
walking into  --something
and to which i am so tired of my fate
i am by no reason to seek out
and become tanagable
set apon the rock , water turns into life
sand in my hands i am home , and yet alone
wind on my face
i cry and yet my face is still dry
for him to see  for him to know
he rememberd  he thought of me ,
silent i was
another day

sis  you know    carrie  later   2/16/2010

and we have ..........

i have the endless sorrow  of perplexing realities , changed for nothing of which i found
we walk in a circle of life not knowing truth from lies , friend to foe ,
i wisper into the night , rain falls  stream of conscience behavior
every one sees what they want to see ,
you know me better , i am the dark you wear , the face behind the mask
lovers of such --------you are unaware ---------you dream me into this world
and all we need is that first kiss , that first reason to say hi . timeless is what i am
time playes tricks on the mind , sleepless nights of not knowing what to do
i am -----------------------------------

carrie ann kawa  02/10/2010

just came to me  hi  ;   ]

understand

four more times i said no
zero excues from me
three is truly the magic number
three is what i used to have
zero is never in endless reality
nine ways to find my way home
eight ways to always say hello i am thinking of you

what we see

clive barker 

i am not here , said my mind to the rest of the world , invisible am i
i saw you alone and in pain , like a rock in a sea that stands alone
i smiled and wave to you and the jester was handed back casual in delivery
i was and then was not , a ghost on a forgotten train
i hear the sound of bells , from a church long gone
i am what i see

carrie ann kawa  2/03/2010 

sorry

just a doodle  cak

i am so sorry i did not post a poem today  its been sorta hetic which to explain well i really dont want to , so a liitle off the cuff musing for the couple of minutes i do have .


to sit and watch the world fall into its own decay is whatching misery run rampent ,
i come undone with the sound of his voice and know he will never say my name in the manner of which i would like
no one knows that i am nowhere and yet some how survive the bitter cold of endless

we walk into the unknow naked as souls lead by light on the cosmic train of enlightment

he is so smart and talented , that he is seems like a mirage in the desert

we do not see with our eyes , we see with our sences

 i realate to sally from a nightmare before christmas  her song i sing to my self , " when will he notice " i fear we were not meant to be "   and the fact she was right  strange  well i went off on my tangents 

goodnight    ww  and to all my friends   

today

today has been odd and strange im really not sure on how to post this strange , i  am in the mist of something and for some reason i am not sure of what it is  almost like someone is keeping a secret from me i go to work i go to school , and i find that the more people in my life i walk a lonly path i know that sounds weird but sometimes i do not belive people see what  i see the sadness on someone face , the complexity of life on a another , i want to ask you something inportant but i dont have the courage which i understand that one , life is not simple and sometimes with all my travels i see hard truth the pain the happy and sometimes the death which to those that are my friends its is not easy seeing someone you love pass it will always leave your heart broken and there is no amount of duck tape to fix it , it forever changes you in ways  i can never explain i can try via poems but in words that are ordinary i cannot ( it is seeing a transformation  on an unknow complex level )

poem tommorow   goodnight